Performance today. spend my 3pm-10pm at NTU. Reading The 48 Laws of Power
Maybe I should do some other things in the morning and night. However, I have wasted that time on scrolling social media. Write this down to remind myself that there is space to improve.
These three days aren’t productive. However, it feels good and necessary… maybe I have been pushing myself too hard and didn’t have enough balance so I constantly need a couple of days to rest?
Watching my own performance, I’m moved by my own growth. This past half-year has been really stressful, whether it’s the demands I’ve placed on myself or the external challenges, whether I succeeded or hit a wall.
In my first performance in the middle of last year, I was shaking so much on stage, I totally didn’t know what I was playing. Even during rehearsals, I couldn’t grasp whether I was practicing enough.
From the first contest to combo, combo+, weekly band practices, performances, and Berklee interviews, I’ve been breaking through walls and learning new skills in each event. Though I’m not yet mature on stage, I can definitely bring a relaxed vibe now… 😭 I’m starting to have good control over my hands, and while my tone and tempo is still a work in progress, it’s reached a stable quality.
I’m especially grateful this year to my bandmate (I’ve known her nearly a year now! Time flies), who helped me quickly get to know lots of talented musicians in the club. Otherwise, being the social slacker that I am, I definitely wouldn’t have met anyone.
Though I’m not leaving just yet, I want to thank NTU Rock Club and Riot Orchestra for all they’ve brought me this year. 🫶
I hope to meet more kind people in the coming year, to practice music together, and enjoy the stage together. 🫶
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